Last
week I started talking about the Four Noble Truths and the Eightfold
Path (the eight principles of enlightened living), looking into Buddhism
in an American way from the ground up. The First Noble Truth or fact
of life being dukkha, dissatisfactoriness — that all conditioned things
are just a little off the mark, a little bit unreliable and ultimately
dissatisfying. Etymologically speaking, dukkha means hard to
bear, off the mark, hollow. The outcome of that means that the more
we are invested in those created things, the more we suffer. Therefore,
the first fact of life is sometimes called suffering, but I find that
a slightly pessimistic interpretation. Personally, I think the message
of the Dharma is a lot more optimistic than that.
These
four facts of life are meant to be known, understood, and realized,
seen as they are. Knowing the bare fact that things are dissatisfying
won’t free us from dissatisfaction. The crucial part is knowing the
Second Noble Truth, which is the cause of that dissatisfaction — not
the things themselves, since the things themselves don’t suffer; it
is we who suffer. The cause of that suffering is clinging, attachment,
greed, desire, resistance, fixation — whatever you want to call it.
It is often called craving. The word literally is tanha in Pali
(samudaya in Sanskrit), which suggests thirst. Because we crave,
continually desire and thirst for various experiences and things, and
because created things are never ultimately satisfying, we suffer. That’s
where the chain of suffering can be addressed: whether or not we cling
to things and crave for experience. It’s not that we have to get rid
of the things themselves. Things are not the problem. It is the attachment,
the identification with things that causes suffering. Tilopa wrote,
“It is not outer objects which entangle us. It is inner clinging which
entangles us.”
This
clinging takes many different forms, as we all know. We might well examine
in our own lives what forms this attachment takes, but traditionally
it is laid out as taking three different aspects: One is craving for
pleasurable experiences, what we want. Second is craving to get rid
of what we don’t want. This is also a desire, of course (although in
the form of aversion). This is interesting, because here we see how
attachment (or desire) and aversion (or anger, aggression) are actually
the very same movement, a craving for something other than what is.
The
third aspect is also very interesting as we go a little deeper into
it: Craving or desire to become something or someone, that is, egotism
itself. It fuels the whole process of rebirth, of wanting something
and becoming that. So there is a lot of dissatisfaction in that, since
whatever we can become, however we can seem, whatever we get or achieve,
doesn’t last forever; yet we exhaust ourselves and absorb ourselves
in getting it; we are invested in it and identify with it. That’s why
clinging or attachment can also be called identification. If we identify
with things — if we identify with our body, if we identify with our
mind, if we identify with our self-concept — since they are not ultimately
permanent or satisfying, it is very trying. We never quite get what
we need out of this incessant clinging and demanding. It’s like drinking
salt water, which cannot alleviate our thirst, but just makes us even
more thirsty.
Tanha
is thirst: thirsting for pleasure, thirsting to be rid of pain, and
thirsting to be or become something or someone. Like drinking salt water,
tanha never alleviates our inner thirst. The more we drink, the thirstier
we become, ultimately to die of thirst. So in Buddha’s analysis of suffering,
and its cause and its end — the Third Truth — and the path to the end
of that suffering — the Fourth Truth — it is very clear that here is
where the chain can get cut: by looking into what we cling to, what
we crave, what we demand, what we identify with, and what we get out
of that attachment. Let’s explore and see for ourselves whether we are
really getting what we want out of it, or not. That could be quite revealing.
I
think if we ask ourselves honestly, we might be surprised to see how
deep this goes. How hard it is to really know how addicted and conditioned
we are! Can we acknowledge how ill at ease, how dis-eased we actually
are? What is this incessant irritation gnawing at us? That is why we
are always gnawing — sort of like Pac Man gobbling — always gnawing
at things, always seeking, always shopping and questing and consuming,
because this dissatisfaction is in us, gnawing at us like a hungry ghost
within our psyche. This incessant gnawing is the truth of dukkha. Maybe
that’s a good translation of dukkha: gnawing dissatisfaction. The cause
of it is this craving, this thirst for pleasure, this desire to avoid
pain, and longing to be or become someone or something.
That
blind drive, that conditioning, perpetuates itself and proliferates
into all of our activities: always trying to make something happen,
become something or someone, get something, get rid of something. It’s
endless, isn’t it? The entire treadmill of conditioning under which
we are staggering most of the time. Staggering or jogging, whatever
we do — like gerbils spinning the wheel in their gerbil-cage. Marathoning,
walking slow motion, meditating, whatever — still we are on the treadmill
trying to get somewhere, to become and to be something. Even idealizing
the Buddha and the way to Buddhahood is another treadmill when looked
at that way — a great effort to be or become Buddha. Yet in terms of
trying to be or become something, that should probably be one of the
last ones to go! We can raise our sights a little bit, but still it
is the treadmill of becoming; there is desire or craving there. There
is a lot of suffering in that.
Therefore,
we find the Dharma teaching is about inner peace, expressing a knowledge
that everything is available within the natural being, our spiritual
ground, the Buddha-nature — as it says in the Dzogchen teachings. This
message, this truth is so liberating. We don’t have to just change our
desires over to “now we want to become Buddha” and spend infinite lifetimes
craving for something different called “Buddha” and trying to reach
the so-called other shore — which seems never here, always somewhere
else — that place called Nirvana. That’s just more becoming and craving
to become something different. How to become just what we are?
That is the conundrum, the koan of spiritual life.
When
we look with the Dharma-eye of spiritual practice, we see that if we
settle back into the beingness of Buddha, which we participate in even
now, we can experience and delight in, celebrate and affirm, this beingness
of Buddha. Ultimately, peace is within. We can see through this incessant
chain of craving and clinging, of wanting and not wanting, the multifarious
afflictions of this thirst that brings so much dissatisfaction and pain
and, even worse, creates suffering in the world and in ourselves. We
can really ease back and reconnect with the component of being, rather
than being lost so much in doing, achieving, and becoming and staying
disconnected from being. We can ease back and experience a little more
balance with the totally complete and innate being-component, in which
there is nothing missing and we can just be as we are. From that everything
can spontaneously proceed. Then all the doings, all the achievements,
and so on, take on an entirely different meaning. They become the art
of living instead of the drudgery of reactivity and conditioning; creative
and proactive rather than reactive.
If
we can step off the treadmill of conditioning — cease staggering forward
under the momentum of our conditioning — with a big outbreath, a Dzogchen
sky-breath, we might find that in truth nothing is missing in that exact
moment. As all the mystics say — though it still remains for us to confirm
— nothing is missing and nothing is in excess. We don’t have to try
to become Buddha, desiring something higher, trying to get rid of something
lesser, while striving blindly to become. We can afford to actually
be as we are, since we already are, anyway. It is not so far. That’s
why the Dzogchen teachings talk about the ground or basis, and the fruit
or result. It is really a rainbow bridge. The ground and the result
are not far at all, so the path joining them isn’t very long. It is
much more a matter of recognizing who and what we are than of desiring
something else, for that thirst continuously perpetuates our pain.
Therefore,
I feel that if we really look into the most basic teaching of the Dharma
— suffering or dissatisfaction, and its real cause — we might actually
find, even here in our own simple, boring old sitting practice, the
panacea, the antidote, the ultimate answer to those questions that all
of the 84,000 Dharma teachings are built upon. We don’t even have to
study them, thank God! We can actually practice them in essence and
realize their essence, even right here, even without using the word
Buddhism, without converting to anything, without believing any dogma
or received teachings, but directly through our own personal experience.
We can cut through the tangled knot of conditioning, of becoming, of
craving, of clinging, of aversion, reconnecting deeply and rediscovering
our pure beingness in whatever form it takes. If we really look in our
daily lives and examine how much this tanha, this thirst, drives us,
I think we would be amazed at how little peace we have, how we are always
plugged in, driven, compulsive, dependent, and ill at ease in ourselves.
We are often plugged in through every sense: ear plugs, nose plugs,
something in the mouth, watching something, listening, feeling, the
seat vibrating while we’re watching television and talking on the phone
with the radio or stereo as background music. Whatever we can get, we
try to experience, rubbing our feet on the foot roller while the beer
rumbles in our stomachs with the TV on, and so on. We can’t just be,
without being a little high, and on and on and on. You know how it is.
None of us are an exception.
All
this stimulation and incessant searching for sensual gratification is
like drinking salt water. The more we drink, the more we seem to need
and want. I think this enlightened vision that the Buddha offers us
to inquire into is something else entirely. It is very profound: What
is bugging us? It seems like everything bugs us. Dukkha. How come nothing
doesn’t bug us, really, in the ultimate analysis? Everything is off
the mark. What is the cause of that? It’s this clinging to things; craving
for something; holding onto that which dissipates, which falls apart,
which is impermanent and ungovernable; identifying with things that
are not true, illusions like our self-concept, which is also just a
fleeting, hollow fabrication. We resist; we are stuck with our
self-image, our ego, invested in our time-worn persona and personal
act, which severely conditions the limits we place on our own possibilities.
You might think your name is Allison and you probably have some other
concepts, some delusions — like that you’re a woman, you’re American,
and so on — but are you just that? Are you not also Buddha, a goddess,
a global citizen, male/female energy? As long as you think you are just
Allison, a graduate student who has no power over what you do, you limit
your true possibilities.
Take
Mother Teresa, for example. She is four and a half feet tall and comes
from Albania. She is a female nun in the Roman Catholic order. Where
did she get the idea that she could go and save the world, that she
could transform Calcutta and take on all of India? She just reinvented
herself instead of being a disempowered, neglected nun in Albania. She
blossomed. She had a different self-concept, or maybe she had less self-concept;
something else flowed through her and she became something completely
different, like the Dalai Lama. Nobody found Mother Teresa when she
was born and said “you should work to save the world.” She reinvented
herself. She took on that mantle, taking on all the poor street people
in Calcutta. She didn’t have much of anything to work with. She didn’t
have the Rockefeller Foundation behind her. She just went to Calcutta
and started doing it. Her heart provided enough to get her going on
such a remarkable way.
The
point I want to make here is that your image is totally a hoax.
Whether Mother Teresa’s is or is not really doesn’t matter, but what
about yours, and mine too? Totally a hoax. But, of course, one has to
function, so one has some sort of mask to present to the world, but
one doesn’t have to be totally invested in it, identified with it, stuck
with it, and deceived by the mask one has assumed. That’s the point
of freedom. You don’t have to be stuck with it. We all inherited our
genetic makeup from our parents, but that doesn’t mean we have to be
particularly stuck with that or overly identify with it. Maybe our parents
weren’t very healthy, but that doesn’t mean we can’t be healthy. When
we take responsibility for ourselves — which is an important part of
growing up, both physically and spiritually — we can actually develop
better character, more integrity, and even total self-mastery.
But
right now we are prey to the hoax and the illusion. We are attached
to it because it is familiar, and all that we know — our cozy, familiar-smelling
ragged nest. Perhaps that is why we think often of Mother Teresa’s myth.
Maybe she is actually like Santa Claus and doesn’t really do anything
good; I don’t know. (She seems saintly.) But we all, for the most part,
need to have somebody like her to hang our hopes on: Santa Claus for
the children, others for us, Mother Teresa or the Dalai Lama, Christ,
whoever. As long as we need to have hopes, we need to hang them somewhere.
But let us not fall prey to too much idealization and give in to our
immature tendency to totalize things as either totally black or white.
For we are usually disappointed in the end if we place anyone or anything
upon a high pedestal.
Thus,
the Second Noble Truth is the cause of dissatisfaction, which is clinging
and craving. The Third Truth, which I’ll go into next week, is the dissolution
of craving and clinging, the heart’s sure release, the relinquishment
of the craving and clinging. The great letting go. Openness and natural
purity of heart, which doesn’t need anything any more. “Sems nyi ngalso”
in Tibetan, as Longchenpa advises, “Rest your weary mind at home and
at ease.” This is the phrase Nyoshul Khenpo Rinpoche always uses, too.
The
Fourth Truth — and for us probably the most important — is the path
to that release, that freedom from clinging and suffering, called the
Eightfold Path, or eight steps to enlightenment, eight principles of
enlightened living. They are basically divided into three: self-discipline
or morality, meditation, and wisdom.
We
can all be free. That is the hope in this joyful message of the Dharma
path: That there is always that possibility, that nothing is eternally
fixed or ruined or hopeless, that everything is changing and not exactly
what we think it is. So every situation, wherever we find ourselves,
is somewhat workable. Even ourselves — workable! Yet the work has to
be done. This work is the true work.
Wisdom
and compassion are inseparable. Wisdom is not some kind of abstraction.
For example, if you have an objective understanding of reality, then
— in the best case — you treat others as you would be treated because
you realize the inseparability of yourself and others. There is less
selfishness. You realize the interrelatedness of all, that others need
the same as one’s self does, so you treat them accordingly. That is
wisdom. Its natural outflow is empathetic compassion. Why would it harm
that which it is? It is simple. We recognize ourselves in each other.
Enlightenment
is not what we think it is. It is such a vast concept, the ultimate
flowering and actualization of all that we can be. It is very hard to
reconcile that with life down here. I think the real important thing
is, how does it relate to us? That can only be realized through your
own practice, your own investigation, your own spiritual life. If you
say nothing matters, everything is empty, or “I’m practicing crazy wisdom,”
and you just drink yourself to death, that is, in fact, an actualization
of the inherent freedom of being. You are free to do so. From that point
of view, it is freedom in action. But in the conventional sense, it
is harmful. It is not very wholesome, nor useful. If you find yourself
rationalizing behavior with the crazy wisdom loophole, the nihilistic
“everything’s the same so it doesn’t matter what I do” loophole, beware!
But if there is a supposedly great master, it is very hard to judge
where they are coming from, why they do things. That’s another matter,
so it is hard to say anything. Motivation means a lot. Don’t spy out
the lice in another’s hair and overlook the cockroach on your own nose!
If
we look deeply in our hearts, we will know. It’s not that obscure, really,
what’s right and what’s wrong. But when we get into judging other people
— and especially so-called enlightened masters — it gets very tricky.
Are
you wondering whether enlightenment is enough? Doesn’t enlightenment
manifest as compassion? It’s important for us to recognize that there
are some doctors, therapists, schoolteachers, and priests who exploit
their patients, clients, students, and parishioners in different ways.
When we are talking about bodhicitta, selfless altruism, exploitation
has no room in that. Let’s not use the word enlightened. What
is enlightened supposed to be? It is what in the West we would
call a saint or sage or wise elder. Examine the behavior, not just the
beliefs and the ideas. What fits and what doesn’t fit? Actually, there
are no perfectly enlightened individuals, there is only enlightened
activity.
If
you realize the nature of your heart and mind, you realize the oneness
with everything and everyone. How can you harm or exploit anyone or
anything? The way I see it is that if someone seems morally reprehensible
or demonstrates addictive behavior patterns, then I would say they obviously
have not completed their spiritual work — at least, not from my point
of view.
Still,
ethics is relativistic. Beyond the mind, beyond dualism, in the absolute,
there is no ethics; so what can you say? Yet that’s not where the activity
we are describing takes place, in the absolute; it takes place in the
relative, here where we live and breathe. Where we relate to each other
as separate, where everything is connected but there is karma, cause
and effect; that’s all in the relative, horizontal plane where we now
all live. The absolute is such a sheer, steep vertical plane that there
is nothing to relate it against or compare it to; there is no good and
bad in the absolute. That’s not where those activities of the teacher
take place. In the absolute, nothing happens. In the relative, everything
counts. That’s where everything happens. That’s the Buddha’s understanding:
Not one or the other, but both. The cross is a beautiful symbol for
that: the horizontal and the vertical, the relative and the absolute,
the true joining of heaven and earth. It is that meeting which completes
the whole picture.
A
natural morality emerges from the experience of unselfishness. So, of
course, there are the Ten Commandments in Buddhism also; the ten non-virtues,
three of body, four of speech, and three of mind. So when you get to
doctrine, it is laid out: not to kill, not to steal, and so on. But
out of genuine enlightenment experience comes a natural morality based
on sanity and realization of the universal nature of us all, seeing
that we all need and want the same. Then there is little question of
misbehavior, although anyone can make a mistake. Let’s not be too idealistic.
The
question I usually ask myself regarding spiritual teachers is not “Are
they enlightened?” but “Are they enlightened enough to help enlighten
us?” That’s my true-ing device, my touchstone.